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MERRY CHRISTMAS

It Christmas!! Had the weirdest dream and I'm about to go back to bed since my brother got me up at like....730. Zzzz.

So I got myself a reading list for the next few months lol.
I'll be reading Olivia's book first since it's short stories and she's bound to ask me about the first story Tuesday. Then, the two books my dad got me AND THEN the book my brother got me. Then after that I got to finish Jen's strange books. (House of Leaves about a house bigger on the inside)

I got some workout/yoga clothes and skinny jeans which make me realize I have monster calves :s

Keith finally got my cover done:

It's getting there. I might either A)shadow the guy or B)get rid of him

Anyways, I got editing to do today so I can send my book to my brother. 

First....sleep

Doctors Orders can be Stupid!

Sometimes I need a rant! When I was playing soccer I would twist my ankle and sprain it. The Doctor would tell me to lay off it for the rest of the season. I didn't, instead I'd play soccer the very next week, limping and all. Every year I'd twist or sprain my ankle, but I did stretches and exercises cuz I never wanted to stop playing soccer.
Years later, my ankle is so strong from never giving up, that now, when I twist it, it never hurts and I'm fine. It was all because I made it strong by not stopping. Because when you stop, your not making anything better. Your avoiding the problem and that doesnt solve anything. If you avoid the problem for a few month and it goes away. The minute you get back to it, it's still a problem isnt it? I never got better did it? Cuz you didnt do anything to make it better!

AHG.

Download illegally before it goes out of style

I'm downloading Breaking Dawn FOR CHELSEY lol.

Side note: Check this video out, I teared up. It's inspiring, I wish I could help these kids!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TdkNn3Ei-Lg&sns=fb

BOOYA Liking it!

So my book has so far gotten good comments. There was actually one girl who commented and before I saw the comment I thought "OMG its prob going to be my first hate comment" annnnd it wasn't. I'm just hoping that the rest of my book gets read and people like it entirely. I consider my book like Harry Potter. When you look at the book without the series, each book is okay. But the whole thing together is kind of a big deal. For JK Rolwing to believe in her book and pretty much go, "Okay, its starts off pretty standard and BAM hit um with a freeze pop! (inside joke)" As Harry got older and you became more involved in this magical world, you just want to live in it too!!! And you get close with the characters and connect with them. You pretty much grow up with the book which is what I did. I was the same age as Harry throughout the series. BOOYA. lol

Anyways, I'm hoping my book fights it's way to the top so when I re-query agents I can atleast say, "My book made it to the Editors, top five out of 7000 other books. My book was beat out BUT everyone ranked my book with top scores and I won a short story writing contest(not really, but we'll see on Dec. 31th) REPRESENT MY BOOK PLEASE. lmao.

Fingers and staying crossed!

Writing Competition

It's getting to be December and on the 30th will be the day they announce the winners for the competition i applied for. I'm hoping for the best, but I don't actually expect to win top spot, but I'm shooting for 3rd place because then I'll get an honourable mention.

I've been editing my book like crazy lately. Which is good, I've given it to Olivia to see her input on it. Then hopefully Marty will get back to me and I'm hoping to get an interview with him. I'm also seeing about an editor, my one friend BUT I really don't wanna pay lol. It's not that I'm cheap, it's just I don't know how she edits and I really don't wanna spend money and be disappointed.

Another note, I got in as a part time student at the University yet the course I wanted doesn't start until September. In the mean time I found the creative writing course Intermediate (I took beginner last year) is starts in Jan. So I'm taking that to brush up on my skills. If I do this everyday, all day, whenever I can, I'm bound to get better right? It's like working out, if you keep doing it, you'll only get stronger.

My First Scam!

I got this in my email today:

Dear Ms Gilbert,

I am writing on behalf of a new international publishing house, JustFiction! Edition.

In the course of a web-research I came across a reference to your manuscript The Echoes and it has caught my attention.

We are a publisher recognized worldwide, whose aim is to help talented, internationally yet unknown authors publish their manuscripts supported by our experience of publishing and make their writing available to a wider audience.

JustFiction! Edition would be especially interested in publishing your manuscript as an e-book and in the form of a printed book and all this at no cost to you, of course.

If you are interested in cooperation, I would be glad to send you an e-mail with further information in an attachment.

I look forward to hearing from you.

Kind regards

Evelyn Davis
Acquisition Editor



Already did my research. They're just like PA. I emailed them back saying "No, thanks" :) I'm so proud!

HATES WHEN ALL MY EDITING DOESN'T GET SAVED

FML

Is this really it?

I found a website. It's a little gleam of hope. I just joined it so I'm just editing my stuff now to make sure it's perfect. I emails Marty, so hopefully he get's back to me about my book and I can start fixing it BEFORE i post it on this site I found :)

Work is getting stressful. I HATE phps and I feel bad because my hearts not in them. I'm trying to sell and be confidant and convince these ppl to get personal training, but I HAAAATTTEEE phps soooo much that I lack my Peak Attitude. Sure, my goal is two new clients BUT I only put that because they expect me to put something. When I have a day of clients and a day of php, I want to not be there lol. Ahg.

And now tomorrow I have a PHP at 11 but a client at 11:30am so I dunno what I'm going to do for that. Rush through it and train my client since I'm getting paid for THAT. I just wish I could be a full time writer already!!!

Well, I'm going to edit now, update that site thingy (which I'm not mentioning here *evil smirk*) and cross my fingers and continue to wish on stars and at 11:11.

Lets Step Forward

Editing and writing today. I'm pumped up. Had a good breakfast, whole grain oatmeal w/ chocolate chips and brown sugar. Of Course With my daily pill intake, vita/vitaLean/F10/CLA. Life is good.


Got the book, "how to be your own literary agent". Finished the book Natural Order and might I say, if you want to step out of your box and read something with awesome writing and a different plot, READ Natural Order. It was great, very absorbing.

It's about Joyce Sparks and her whole life has been about keeping secrets. Her first love is rumored to be gay, but she's in denial becuase she's soooo in love with him. But he leaves to be a movie stars, so she tries to move on. The book starts off with Joyce in an old folks home and hints about her son, who apparently died young from cancer. That isn't the truth of course, her son died of something a lot of young died from back in the 60's and 70's. AIDS. Yes her son was gay and the whole story revolves around Joyce trying to desperately to protect her son and to keep his secret that in the end, it ruins all. By the end though, she finally does come to terms and for the first time ever, admits it.

For me, I enjoyed reading it, it was something different then my usual YA books. I've also joined "Authonomy" which gives me the chance to get my book out there. But first I'm editing it AGAIN, to make sure it's perfect :)

One Step Forward

So BookFest was a success. I know have a contact in the publishing industry and have an understanding of what to do next. It was difficult going to the Bookfest alone, but it gave me some independence. Right  now, my next few steps are finishing editing my synopsis, email Marty the chapters and book in a time to chat with him. Then, atm I have to re-register for writers market, get info on the writers conference in Ontario and start making plans. I need to work on conversation starters and pump up my confidance. I think that if I pumped up my self (my appearance) look fit, would give me an edge at a conference.

BOOYA.

Okay, going home, brush my teeth, register, come back and maybe workout.

BOOKFEST Windsor Day 2 & 3

Day Two of Bookfest was pretty sweet. Met the guys who created Kill Shakespeare and got the comic booked signed. Then there was the IFAO Authors reading and loved ALL four of them. Will Ferguson was so funny! He wrote Canadian Pie and read some so I bought it, can't wait to read it. Then Brian Francis spoke a bit about his book. He wrote it from a 86 year old lady and was well written! So I got that one too.

Day Three was VERY eventful. I started my day there at 9:30am to 3:30pm. Met this girl Kate who ends up being the editor for Black Moss Press, and she ended up sitting with me for the other event we gone too like the poetry reading. She a poet and already has 84 pages of poetry done. Then we both attended this event called "Getting your words out" and it was four publisher and they talked about the industry, their process and all that jazz. THAT was sweet. Then I walked outside the Gallery and saw they were protesting for Slutwalk. I totally thought it was about dressing like a slut and being all "we're people too!"

But it wasn't . lol. Some Police Cheif was quoted saying: "Women wouldn't get raped if they were asking for it, by the way they dress"

So I was front row with a banner saying "Slut Walk Windsor"

Busy busy busy. I have to wash my hair now, go to a party, THEN another party and back to the first party (hoping) and yea. Go to sleep, teach RPM tomorrow and monday. Geez.

DAY ONE of BOOKFEST WINDSOR 2011

"Girls Night Out" Thursday at the Art Gallery of WIndsor had the writers of Black Moss Press present some of their poetry. It made me realize how I'm not a question asking person. Other people had questions, but I didn't, but the questions that were asked made me think 'why didn't I think to ask that'. It was pretty cool though and there were a ton of people there. You could tell who the 'writers' were and hoped I wasn't that obvious. Today is Day Two and classy wear/business/professional. If anyone asks if I'm a writer I'll tell them that I'm a creative imaginable person who tried to be a writer. lol.

When I was listening to one authors prose piece I thought to myself, Why do people make characters sound like writers? If the character isn't a writer in the story, then they shouldn't sound like one, observing and being crazy descriptive and insightful.

Then I realized the woman was reading a poem. Oops. Today my goal is to meet Marty Gervais (whose the owner and publisher of Black Moss Press) and introduce myself. My friend that knows him says he talks a lot and is cool enough to sit down and chat. So I'm going to try and do that to either get referred to a publishing company since they don't necessarily print my kind of book.

Wish me luck!

Dreams

Since Greg hasn't slept over I've been having very vivid dreams, which I love having. ONe was about zombies but they weren't your usual gross and "ahhhhggg brains" zombies, they were just 'infected' people. And I loved one of them lol. They were to go kill him and I ran saying, "No plaese dont! I can't be without him! He's not like the rest" typical eh?

Last night I had a really cool one. Sci-Fi and relatable, which is my spicalty. It was about this guy, we'll call him Christopher. He saw his older brother kill a man and his friends helped him hide the body. Shaken up by the sighting, he confronted his brother. Chris seems to be a do gooder and has enough guts to stick up for the right thing. So he pretty much tell his brother he's going to testify against him if it came down to it. He sees his brother as a murderours evil guy and for the rest of the week in High school, the brother and his friends stalk him to make him scared.

Chris has a friend, she nerdy but he's known her for a while, grew up together kinda thing. She sees whats going on and hears Chris talk about saying things like, "I wish I could disappear and not be seen by them for a while until the time comes to testiy"

This is wear it gets science-y. She and her other nerdy friends have created a thing called "Focus" and you use a cd, pop it in a computer and you walk thru the screen. (Yes, through the computer screen) and your in the same place BUT your in "Focus". You are not seen by people that you dont wanna be seen by, but everything is normal but a little more tinted. So Chris enters "Focus" and starts to mess around with his brothers friends. He decides with the girl to uncover the body and bring it to the police.

When shit hits the fan, Chris's brothers friends find out about "Focus" and try and find a way in to get Chris. Chris scratches the cd he used so that they cant access it, but its too late, they've gotten in Focus and Chris and his chick friend (we'll say her name is Mandy, she looked like a Mandy) are trying to trap them within Focus to reverse the system so that the friends will remain unseen forever. They'll pretty much be ghosts to people on the outside.

Anyways, I woke up and couldn't get back to sleep :(

Bad Gossip and Achy Breaky Hearts

I somewhat have fallen off the wagon of writing. I've been busy watching Dexter season 5 and trying to workout in order to maintain my shape. Season 5 of Dexter was intense, but it didn't get intense until the forth episode? It always ends the same too. Season finale, Dexter finds the main killer of the story who the police are also looking for and someone close to him gets taken by that killer. Dexter is so bad ass that I don't even sweat anymore when hes in a dire situation. I know for a fact he's going to do something bad ass and kill that killer! Lol.

Working been tough, I've tried to remain hopefully but there was one girl that really bugged me. She had no objections to the one year contract and wanted to take it home to show her husband, so that he could pay for it. Then doesn't show up the next day when she said she was going to be there to pay and get started. Says she has bad memory and forgot she was having dinner with the husbands parents. Mmm. Then when I see her the day after that, she says it's the money. So I knock down the price and again, has no objections with it. When I tell her, "Hey, go on the bike and warm up, I'll give you a free session since you don't know how to use the weight machines!" So I leave, talk to the second in command, go back out to give her the session and she backs down! Says that she just wants to do it on her own. I'm like, but its free! I'm giving you a free session....with a trainer... Like what the hell? I had my hopes up! Thinking she was going to sign since she was the one who had come to front desk asking for it. And it's not like I gave her a whole lot of time to think about the free session. But I guess five minutes was all it took.

Anyways. There was some gossip I overheard as well. About how we should be there all the time and do this and that. The thing is, we ant getting paid like front desk. We don't get paid hourly and I'd rather train my clients where I know I'm getting paid, then do a php where I might get a sale. When I do have free time, it during slow hours and I've pretty much talked to every one there about personal training. I'm the one there most often, I help front desk and even made calls (their job) and booked in appointments. Ahg.

I think I pulled my chest muscle. I hurts when I move :(

I am back to writing though. I've been watching sex and the city with Jen and since Carries a writing and all, it's kind of amped me up. I have to re write this whole scene between Chase and Keira which is turning out better than I thought. I'm trying to read "The Road" but it's sooooo hard! So much description and nothing actually happening. Ahggg. Well I got work to do!!

It's Focus Time

I got SUPER FREAK. It's delicious and it helps with working out and focus. Therefore, I'll be drinking that when I go to edit/write and workout in between brain farts. Work going going going going. It's funny because when I get bored at home, I go to work. So strange lol.

Me and Greg had a fight last night. Dumdum dum. It was silly though, I took away his candy since he wasn't getting any homework done and he threw a fit! He then didn't txt me at all! So we fought today and I hung up on him cuz he was getting all mad. After I shut off my phone he facebooked me saying sorry lol. WELL. he came over and we talked, cuz thats how we roll. I couldn't write, I was so mad.

Tonight I'll going to Jen's but I dont have to wake up so early tomorrow so maybe I'll write/edit.

I'm at work now....maybe I should get back to it :P

CRUMMY weather

Weather been shit. I haven't been on here in a bit since nothing toooo crazy is going on. Goodlife is awesome, instead of telling you that your stats suck and your slacking, they encourage you and pump you up to try and improve.

Heard a secret. Actually was told one. And apparently I am terrible at keeping it. ONLY since it's ultra juicy. I would say it on here, BUT my friend that reads this blogs *cough cough* knows them. If I mention it here, my friend would know for sure who I'm talking about and I would rather tell her the secret in person. I think she needs to knows. Anywayssssss

I haven't been editing since my client Olivia has sent me off to read GOOD books. To step out of the box. I read "Margaux with an X" which is a very WELL WRITTEN book. It's not too long and it really well done. I really enjoyed it. Next up is "The Road" and man, it's hard to read. Its style is off the charts so it's hard to follow and hard to get into. Reminds me of a time when I read Wuthering Heights.

I started watching Veronica Mars first season as well, so I've been distracted by that. It was a goooood season. But I don't know anyone with the one seasons so I'm just going to google season two and read what happens. I liked the romance with Logan :) sooo cute.

I'm going to a fashion show/fundraiser for charity tonight with my cuzin and Grandma. Should be fun. :D

New Edits. Fitness Competition(First and Third Place!) And BOOKS

First off, Editing is going slow.... yea... I've been reading book to improve on my grammar such as: How NOT to write a novel. lol. And Grammar girl's quick and dirty tricks. So it's been a learning experience.

Today was the Figure/Fitness/Bikini Open (OPA) And my friends Lisa and Dee both competed (Lisa was in bikini and Dee was in Figure) Dee got 1st in her division and Lisa got 3rd! Which are both awesome places since it was their first time going to one. It was pretty cool, got free stuff and after watching is all I just wanted to go to the gym and workout lol. The bodybuilding for Womens, some girl (I'm assuming it was her first time) nearly collapsed. It's tough to pose and hold hold hold (SMILE) hold hold. Okay relax.

Recently I've been playing Mystical Ninja for N64. When I was young and had played this, it was a sick game. Yet, I never knew the story line. So playing it now, yea, the story line sucks. The gameplay is fun and figuring everything out is cool too BUT the antagonist suck and are stupid, but I am playing a kids game. :)

So if you guys are bored search this:

The Incredible Survival Story Of Ross Capicchioni

And find the video. REALLY COOL STORY. Ross's friend shot and robbed him, leaving him for dead. It was a friend he had known for YEARS. So it's his story on kind of what happened and how he was able to survive. Anyways, it's late and I gotta teach at 9am tomorrow morning. Ahhhh. Then all day to EDIT (Hopefully)

Rawr TIGERS

Tiger's game today. (Detroit Tigers) please don't stalk me. Today was the PT launch and MY name was on the board. BOO YAA. Top Ten Personal Trainers DPA (dollar per agreement) Feels good. Strange thing though....

I went to the washroom and Ashley from Dev was in there. I start talking to her about crossfit training and such. So we walk out together and head back to the conference room. The FT of Dev (And now Tec.) walks by and says "............." something. Note: I've never spoken to him. I didn't say anything back and I just walked by without giving him my attention. (Side note: he's bad news bears) But the fact is that he said something...

Stateside Adventure

We went over to the States! Went to GNC. I swear we were the only white people in the malllllll. Is that bad to say? lol. I had to peee so I go into the washrooms there and they're half stalls. Weird.... And the door didn't lock AND there was a hole so you could see directly into my stall. So I didn't go. lol.

Top news today: I've lost a friend on facebook, she has declared that we weren't friends anymore so I did the honors and unfriended her. Dumdumdum. It's sad when you see a friend get consumed by their boyfriend and they loose touch. Yet, if you rudely say, "We aren't friends" then why am I still on your facebook? Why do you say HappyBday on my wall AND boyfriends wall when we aren't friends?

To me friends are people I know who I can wave hi to and be all "How've you been?" Sure we don't hang out but I still consider a fair number of people from high school, whom I've lost touch with, friends. If we weren't friends then why the hell did I waste my time listening to your useless (and stupid) bitching about your boyfriend, or offer you condolences when your dad died. Or go out searching for you when you posted a suicide note on Facebook.

You see, I sent her a message on FB since she has constant status updates ranting about her husband, insulting him and just having her own pity party. I pretty much said that she needed to grow up because she was making herself look bad and the marriage should be taken seriously and that's when she sent back stating our friends was non-existent.

I think she's just lonely, sure she has friends, but people I've spoken with have said that once she and the guy started dating, she just completely shunned everyone. They all said, they were all friends with her and then BAM, not friends anymore. Same goes for the guy, a friend of his (coworker) said that now he just ignores her.

The whole things silly and after much bickering back and forth, I was just done. She's still juvenile and ignorant in her relationship, like she's always been. And it's probably why it's failing now. If the problems were ongoing then why get married? Why embarrass yourself on Facebook and have everyone know your relationships in the shitter.

That goes for everyone on Facebook who posts their drama and start even more drama by doing so. I know the thing says "Whats on your mind?" But why would anyone want to start shit. Why can't people be adults and save their rants for private journals, or blogs (such as this one) where you know it's a slim chance that anyone you know will come across this.

I hope to never be one of those attention seeking bitches, who strive for drama and chaos. NO, thank you.

CAP. Grandpa, and Greg's Birthday

It's CAP. And I still have yet to hit my client gain goal. Had to leave work early since My grandpa's in the hospital. He thought he was having a heart attack, but when they xrayed him, it was a knot in his bowl. *few*

Greg's 21 today! Yay boyfriend for now only being ONE year younger than me. I got him the sixth season of HIMYM and jolly rangers.

Olivia is looking for my short story. YIKES. lol. I'm nervous since she'll be the one to say, "It's shit" :(

 That's Noob when she was a little kittennnn ^^^

TEAM SUNDAY

Finally bought my protein meal replacement shakes so I can now do my three hour workout on sundays. RPM, STEP and PUMP. WOOT. I also got coconut milk for my protein shakes AND I also made homemade protein bars. Peanuts, honey, oat bran and coconut milk. Mmmmm.

^What I stumbled onto! LOLz^

So I'm still waitng for the editing of my short story to be done. The deadline is Saturday YIKES. I'll probably cut it close. I sent an query email to an agent. Now, I've been really trying to amp up my letter to catch attention and be personable. The only thing is when I do this and get rejected, those are the ones that hurt. The agent I sent too, I found that my book is REALLY what she's looking for since it's fantasy but bringing out real human truths. 

I remember when I was taking the online writing course, all my stories I submitted had something to do with my book. People liked them and a few said that as they started reading, they thought it was a regular genre then BAM it sci-fi/fantasy. The characters are so human though, so it's still relate-able (least thats what the teacher said). 

Sometimes.....I worry about her.... lol

Wish me luck. I hope my hard work pays off one day and I'll be given a chance!

Going Hungry!!

Right now, there's no food at my house. I think i'm going to make some protein bars with honey and peanut butter.
Yesterday I went for a run, my IT band was fine THANK GOD. I was thinking about going for another job today but my band was acting up so I'm going to give it a rest.

Peeve of the day: Some Hippie commented on my profile picture of Erin Stern and said "Exercise is unhealthy". Like really? You're commenting on a personal trainers facebook? REALLY.
I'll be the one laughing when he shows up at MY gym, at 40 years old with diabetes/osteoporosis saying his doctor told him to get to the gym. And I'll be the one going "I thought you said exercise was unhealthy? Yet you doctor's prescribing it because you're frail and wasting away from smoking and doing drugs? Good job."
Being Opinionated gets you nowhere.

I can understand where he can say it's unhealthy when some girl try and get their body% down to 2%. Or where it's a compulsive disorder and people HAVE to work out, or they just work out all the time. I decided to not let it get me by making a mini rant here.

My 2012 guide to literary agents is in today!!! Exciting!!!!

Here's some picture of my profile pics. They are girls that I admire and hope to one say look like, just a bit more toned down :P

Nicole Nagrani

Short Story

Okay, my short story for the compition will be cutting is close at the 4000 word mark :s

Ever since I was young I always wrote long ass stories than everybody else.

I went for a jog, on my way home I see this weird guy who lives on my street. Mind you, I'm on the opposite side of the street. He sees me and crosses the street, I cross to, to avoid him. He then stops and goes back, LIKE WTF. To obviously walk by me. Now, months ago I was nice and said hi to him one time when I was walking. Apparently I shouldn't be nice to creepy strangers. Lesson learned.

^My fav. thing

What I teach as well

See^^ I'm so happy :) lol

Writing Contest

There's a writing contest I'm entering in. Sci-fi/fantasy utopia kind of deal. I figure it's worth a shot. The 'beginning' of my book is like a short story. I have a week to finish it, and I think I have to keep it within 4000 words? Don't know how many pages that it, probably in the 20-30 range. When I think of the layout of my story that I'll submit for the contest, it feels like it'll be within range.

I'm shooting for honourable mention lol. Something to add to my query letttttttter

Well, I best be one it then.

Query Letter

Today I'm going to try and write the ULTIMATE Query Letter! Using Guide to Literary agents 2009/2010/2011.

Thing to make sure I include:
Watch grammar, spelling, word usage and sentence structure.
Make opening paragraph different and surprising while saying what kind of book is it right off the bat.
One page long
TRY and make summary of the book in ONE paragraph
Show them you're dedicated to your writing
Don't say your writing in hope they represent your work, get to the heart of the matter, the Book!
Friends/family readers loved your book-Leave that part out
Mention something personal in the letter to the agent as in: You spoke and blahblah this conferance. So they know their not getting sent a generic letter. 




Manuscripts:
Watch for unoriginal plots and Voice.
Write what you love, not what you think will sell!


Okay. I shall begin!

400!!!

So I wanted to see what my 1max rep was for the leg press. I have a rough idea, but I maxed out the machine, therefore I'd have to add weight to the whole stack. I stopped after I leg pressed 400lb! And no, I'm not fat nor do I have HUGE legs. I was strong and well conditioned legs from Spinning.
As for my workout I was only able to workout two muscle groups, but they're the ones that need some trimming. This is the weight and workout I did for my arms.

Shoulders: Upward rows w/EZ bar.
EZbar+15lb
Reps:12
Then without breaking I lowers the weight to 5lb on the EZ bar and did 15reps for the set2.
Set 3: 5lb 15reps

Biceps: EZbar curl
EZbar+15lb
Reps:12
Then again without breaking I did the second set with the 5lbs 15reps.
Set 3: 5lb 15reps

And MAN my arms are sore today! It hurt to hand my client the bar today since my shoulders KILL.

Cardio today: Spinning 55mins. RPM 52 (I gotta practice)
*NOTE* 55min is a whole class. It's hills, racing, attacks and mountains FYI lol

Peak Attitude = SHIT

I feel down. I think its that time of the month and I'm getting break outs so I feel ugly.

I think today I'm going to play "The Bouncer" for PS2 just to reset my head. --The Bouncer tells the story of three bouncers on a rescue mission to save their young friend from a megalomaniacal solar technology corporation. The game is structured like a "playable action movie" and the plot unfolds differently depending on which character the player chooses for specific gameplay sequences---


So I think I'll try it out, Baker lent them to me and she says it's an easy game to beat sooooo I'm hoping to make it an all nighter game. AKA: Beat it like mario64 so around four hours of play time. :)

I have to head to work today around 3, it'll give me an hour before the meeting so I plan on working out. Since I know THAT'LL make me feel a lot better.

I'm trying out a new work out routine for weight, I've been doing it with my client and she's been saying she feels thinner. SO I think it's working. 

I'll post the workout after I do it today WITH the amount of weight I use and all that jazz. :)   

Bruiser- RIP

There is never a dull moment at Goodlife. Yesterday, my boss (Who's an extreme animal lover) had her cat Bruiser not return home the previous night. Usually he returns but my boss knew something was a miss. The next day (yesterday) she had posters up.
Backstory about Bruiser:
He's a steel grey coloured cat, who was the badass of the hood my boss lives in. He's tough and was a stray. She started to feed him whenever he visited her. Slowly he started going into her house and got comfortable with her. Even when he offically became her indoor cat, she was still scared of him. One time he scratched her and it got infected and I think she almost lost her arm? So you can see why she was slightly scared of him. Anyways, he got sick one time and she brought him to a vets. When the vet walked in I guess Bruiser jumped onto my bosses lap for some comfort and she completely froze, scared he was gunna attack her! The vet looked at her like, "is this not your cat?" lol
Boss: "Yea, but he's never done this!"
So since then he's been her baby. She even talked about him when I first met her! When I took the training course to be a personal trainer.
She brought him to the gym a few months ago and I got to meet him. She warned me though: "I don't know if he'll attack you since he doesn't know you." she says.
Well, I just put my hand down and went, "Hey there, Brusier!" and he was so friendly and loving. And to think he was this big badass :)

So brings us to today. She got a call...someone found her cat. She couldn't go, so me and Lauren took off to investigate. We didn't find anything and I had a client(which I was late for) and during the training all I saw was my boss speed out the door. I just hoped for the best :(

She didn't come back and later I found out from Dani, that they did find Bruiser but not alive. It sucks. It truely does. Pets are just like our babies. I can't imagine what she's going through. I tear up just thinking about me ever picking up Noob from the road. Or the devastation when I found Smokey who looked like he was sleeping.

Now I have no idea what to say to my boss when she comes back this week. If it were me, I wouldn't want to be reminded. Plus, I'm terrible with words. I might try to say a joke and completely make it awkward :S

I'm going to do some editing just to get my mind off this :(

RIP Bruiser <3

PublishAmerica

Today I got an email back from the publishing company saying that they wanted to view my manuscript. Well, Well, well apparent big name publishing company. Internet nowadays allows everyone research and find out anything. There are no secrets between you and the internet! Dumdumdum.

Since AFTER I submitted my query to this publishing company, I googled them. First in the suggestion box 'SCAM'. Ooooo the heat turns up! Now, my understanding about a publishing company is that they'll publish your book, edit it, make sure there's no print errors, distribute and market your books, and so on... right? THIS publishing company only PRINTS your book and wants you to buy your own copies to give to your family, blah blah. Strange....

*Type type type* More research*
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/PublishAmerica
^^I found that interesting. Since on their website they say their a traditional publishing company.

WHAT I FOUND interesting was their slogan "We don't want your money, we want your book."
Now, now, that sounds a little...controlling. But I think that's the only thing they say truthful because when they decide they want to publish your book, they make you sign a contract for 7 YEARS. YIKESSSS.
http://www.complaintsboard.com/complaints/publish-america-c150696.html  < Complaints about the company.

It gets better. http://christianityforthinkers.com/publishamerica.htm < I found that site rather interesting since the lady did her homework AND lets you see her emails and their replies AND a very RUDE email to one of their 'authors'.

With all that being said, I think I'll take the higher route and NOT give them my manuscript since apparently they take anyone's(Wiki said someone submitted a manuscript that PA PRINTED and the manuscript had the first 30pages repeated ten times LOLZ)  and they take your rights of your book for 7 years. No thank you!

Over 100 Views!

Yea! I've finally hit over a 100 views! I bet some of you are going, "yea, NOT that big of a deal. I hit 1MILLION yesterday. pffffft"

*Gives finger*

So, it's been 10years since 9/11. I bet every blog out there is posting something about it. Which is fine, people get to read all the different stories about when they heard about it. I was in grade 7 and didn't even know what the 'twin towers' were.
The teacher sat us all down in class and told us what happened. Some girl made a comment:

"Why should we care? That's nowhere close to where we are.."

Yea....teacher was PISSED. But at the time, I agreed  with her, since I knew nothing about the towers and didn't actually understand what was going on. Until I got home and it was all my mother watched. Everything started to unfold and THAT's when I started caring just based off the impact it was having.
10 years later and there's still a war....mmm.

Well, that was my little bit. I'm at Starbucks. Yea, that's right, I'm one of thoooose people right now. Lol.
I'll be editing until Chelsey shows up :)

OMG YOUR KIDDING?!?!

Holy smokes, blogger sucks ass since I CAN'T FIGURE OUT HOW TO COMMENT.
I either have to use some other account, like REALLY? or another email and it still WON'Y let me!!!!

So if anyone can explain how I can comment on my own stuff, please do.

My FYI, I commented (two posts ago) deadenveins is Me. My livejournal account that hasn't been used for EONS.

Eons as in HIGHschool! Lol

Anyways.....that's allll

2am Publishing

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Saturday and I'm NOT going out

Yeah, that's right. That title is true...I think. Lol. Usually I'll want to stay inside but I'll get bored and WANT to go out. Actually I kind of want to go to Starbucks, drink a frap and edit.
Now for an update. I went for a walk to the dollar store and saw that my friend Alex was working. We chatted for a bit, blahblahblah, until I had to go.
"I'll leave you to your work man, I gotta go edit."
And then she turns and says, "Hey! Did you see that So-n-so has like, two books published?"
I was like WHAT.

So Alex proceeds to tell me how a girl from our high school has two books published already. How is it that I'm having such a hard time and she already has two? So clearly I'm mad about this, because I'm all gonghoe about my book. lol. I storm off to go check this shit out.

Stormed my way home and went onto facebook. Alex was telling the truth, rats! lol. BUT, it wasn't as bad as it seemed. Yes, she has two books published. (Almost Lost and Hate me or Love me....if you guys want to check the out.) BUT I'm going a different route for the publication of my book.

I hitting up agencies since I figure that'll be my best bet to get my story out there. So that LOTS of people can love my characters as much as I do (Since no one can love them more than me :P )

Her books were hard to find, and you can only get them off of amazon? I think. I tried to find what they're about, but no luck. One day, I hope they find their way into mainstream and I can say I went to highschool with that girl. Of course that's what they'll be saying about MOI when I'm rich and FAMOUS. lol. high hopes....high hopes... lol

I'll tell you now, I WAS going to come onto here and BITCH about it and rant and say mean things. Yet, that won't make it any better nor will it look good on me. I actually went to her publishers website and submitted my query just to see. They don't really say what they're looking for, but I gave it a shot anyway.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=loDBIWZSack
^^Cool/chill song. Makes you bob your head :)

  

The Devil and God are raging inside

Good Album(title) It how I felt yesterday. I got mad at Greg last night. It wasn't a big fight but it was one of those 'I'm sick of this' fight. He spent the whole drive home saying nothing as I was telling him how I feel. Then I go to leave and I don't give him a kiss goodbye, he doesn't deserve one. So I give him a txt after he leave, cuz since he went and didn't even try and make things better or fix anything.

After txt's back and forth he comes back over, we talk and he sleeps over.

The whole Devil and God are raging inside me come from me wanting to break up. It's just that I don't have faith in him to change anymore. I don't expect him to change, just to not make me feel bad when he does nice things. Certain things that he says just need to change. It's impossible to break up with someone that you really love because I don't want to stay with him for love and have it waste my whole life because he doesn't change and continues to be a dick.

Which leads us to my dream I had. I'm used to having dreams of Greg betraying me, since it's my worst fears. BUT this one, he cheated on me with my client Morgan! In the dream, there was a party and I left early, but Greg stayed and went to another party with her and that's where the cheating happened. I couldn't even bring myself to ask him what they did, even if it was a dream. The next day I see Greg and start piecing together what really happened and it comes out.

All I felt in my sleep was heat come down from my shoulders and burn into my chest. I start to breath weird, like I can't breathe through my nose and I start heaving. Everything starts to crumble inwards in my chest, my heart start pumping harder and it hurts a lot. I start to wake up from my dream.

It's only 7am and I had the worst sleep. For the next two hour I relive that dream, constantly getting my heart broken. It feel like did with my ex. It's like a panic attack and someone tied you chest tight and they keep squeezing.

I need to find my lavender spray! Since that was the only thing that stopped the bad dreams...

COLTON BAKER

He's here! And he's a badass!

Drawn by me and Coloured by my friend Keith Mcfadden.

Since I'm terrible when it comes to shading and contouring :P

Anyway, editing's going well. I have yet ANOTHER added chapter. Adam's part is almost done. I'm on the last of his chapter.

I have a question that I hope to one day be answered!

I have m antagonist's back story written out. When should I put it in my story? At the end? In book two?

STORMMZZZ twitter and books

First off, I finished PUSH. Good book, not what I'm use to since I read YA. It ended quite suddenly but it ended with a poem by the main character and back-stories from the other characters. It's a book I probably wont read again. I think I'll probably re-read the hunger games though. Then Harry Potter or some book written in third person. I read like a writer so more reading helps my writing :)

Second. BIG STORM! But no tornado watch. Looks like its already clearing. Which would be nice since I wanna bike home from the boyfriends house tonight.

That's what it looks like. So round One, now onto round two!

I successfully did ONE DAY of the caveman diet. 

Breakfast: Eggs (Three, with one yoke)

Lunch: Protein Shake

Shrimp, peppers and mushrooms

Dinner: Bacon!!!

Tea (Oolong tea)

And now I'm hungry again! More tea? Maybe more bacon?

Best diet EVER!!

UFC

Watching UFC, all Anderson Silva's fights. I hate him because he's cocky and just so awesome at the sport. I wish someone would just put him in his place!

If I was a boy and I was in the UFC, I would change my name to Vegeta and look like this:

Yea, that's right. I'd be a Saiyan too. 

No rest for the wicked!

Went to bed at 1am last night and around 7am my cat Noob somehow got into my room. Now, she tries to be quiet but steps on EVERYTHING that makes noise. She sucks at being sneaky! So she comes in and starts meowing because she wants food.

I figure if she doesn't see me, she'll think I'm not there and she'll leave. So I cover myself in my blanket and put my head under the pillow.

All I feel is Noob get on the bed and start roaming around to find me. Like WTF, then she sits on my back and continues meowing. Stupid/relatively smart cat! She then goes over to my legs, straddles one and starts biting my heel! I shake her off and turn to my side, still completely covered expect a tiny hole for me to breath. I feel her walk up to head and all I see is this little paw start attempting to pull the cover away from my face. REALLY??

But thats why I love her lol.

The minute I look at her, she gives me her sad, I'm hungry, meow. So I get up and feed her. Little brat!

Thats her ^^ in the picture above

CAP!

Its CAP! So, I'm still at work. I cleaned a bit and by that I mean I walked around and put things back where they should be. Tided up. :P

So I'm reading 'Push'. Movie was called Precious. I'm sure everyone know the name. Apparently it was a good movie, but I plan on reading the book before watching the movie. So far so good. A little on the different side and saying that I mean, I've never really read such a graphic book. It's not too too graphic, but where my jaw drops when I read some parts. It's aspiring though, how the character's poor and uneducated and has motivation to learn. Her view point is original and it's interesting how the whole book's written.
Since shes not that great in writing, the book is poorly written. But it improves as the character does!

Going out and hanging with Baker tonight. That will consist of tea drinking and good chats!


>Wrote some Chapter 3 for a bit. It totally took a different course of conflict. Which I guess is good? I also think it's good that I'm writing everyday!<<

The Echoes Title Page

If you check out my website your'll see the original "The Echoes" cover. This time (and I don't know if it'll be the cover) we're taking an actual picture and fiddling around with it to see what it'll look like. Here's the original of the picture we're creating:

And then we'll change it into something dark! Have the background all black and the words 

"The Echoes

Don't let the evil consume you"

Dumdumdum. Just wait OKAY!?

Performance Reveiw

Gotta go to my performance review tomorrow for my group exercise instructor job. RPM! I'm hoping for a raise since I got CanFitPro certified and took on my own class and kept the numbers average!

I pretty much have tomorrow off. I'll go into goodlife, do a php, do nothing and clean kjhgfd
i have turrets uytre <<see <<

STFOPUck

I cant stop myself, gosh. lmao. "not funny, no not funny."

Anyways. Apparently Monana in dark cloud sucks.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-fVDGu82FeQ


^^So cute and funny^^ Check is out

Work work work

So Aug. I didn't get a whole lot of hours since everyone was going on vacation or just impossible to get ahold of! But now with Steptmber fast approuching I'll probably get my hour back up. I'm at work now, still full of gross dry sweat since I taught RPM for Karen this morning! Can't wait to shower!

Went to Chapter with the boyfriend for lunch and I might get the book 'Writers Digest. Guide to getting published' since my way clearly isn't working lol. I won't stop trying though! Just wait till the Bookfest in November! That'll be where I'll get my foot in the door!

I'm working on Colton, re-vamped him. Now I actually like having his character around. OH! During editing my first chapter, I ended up going off in another direction then the oringinal, which I think is for the better. I had a dream last night that I received a rejection email which isn't uncommon for me lol BUT this one, the woman just lashed out! Saying my book is a failure. So I got sad then more determinded than ever to proof the lady wrong! lol. Checked my email, no rejection....yet lol.

Client should be in now. G2G!

(Spell check not working FYI)

Update!

There was NO tornado. BUT it was pretty cool driving with Baker in pouring rain and then sudden it just stops. Then pours again! We hung out made tea and had an unexpected visit from her uncle. Bakers started a diet. Cave Man Diet.
You eat things they would've eaten like meat and vegetables.

>>Heard my dad yell just now...??<<

Anyways. So I tried the diet the next day. Breakfast time and I look in the fridge and have no idea what I'm going to eat while on this diet. Egg? I love eggs on english muffins....and toast. I made an omelette. <<Apparently Chrome has no idea what that word is...>>

For lunch. A drum stick and I'm not talking about the chicken. I talking Ice cream cone with chocolate and nuts. Diet = FAIL.

I guess I shouldn't get right into it tho, completely cutting breads and dairy. It says it'll shock the system and that I should slowly get into it. Therefore Drumsticks are okay...right? lol.



Dummmmdumdudm
Did a whole lot of nothing today. Which was nice for a change. I MIGHT go to the cornfest since I did my makeup and look awesome and such. But at the same time it'll suck to find parking, suck to pay 5$ to get in, suck to not spend ANYTHING and suck for going all the way out to Tecumseh for barely any fun.
Our Lady Peace is playing tho..... bah oh well.


FYI. I redesigned my character Colton. WILL POST SOON. promise :)

Tornado!

On Sunday evening around 4pm a tornado hit little old Godrich Ontario. Which is crazy since there hasn't been one THAT bad in eons. It was an f2?! Now, today their saying for Windsor that we got watches up for a tornado....but there isn't a cloud in the sky....Makes me wonder if that's how Godrich's day started. BAM tornado strikes!

The twister is right in the main part of town, ripping off the tops of stores and destroying a church that has been around there for years!

I'll keep ya posted about the apparent tornado we might get today. Weathermen predicted the storms to start at 3pm...oh look its 4:30pm!! lol. 

Boyfriends at work today, so I'll either edit or go see BAKER!!!

Cheers!

EDIT

When I went to Canfit is actually did some editing. Got carried away and pretty much took chapter two in a different direction :P So tonight after the movies I'm hoping to get back on it and continue the corrections and I'll actually have an ADDED chapter!

Wish me luck! Here's some pics to check out!

Can Fit Pro

This past weekend I went up to Toronto for the CanFitPro conferance! It was a ton of fun but next year I'll have to be a bit more organized. The Saturday we left on the train at 530am and got there at ten. We didn't have a ton of time because I didn't know where anything was since it was my first time in Toronto. We got to the metro conferance centre, registered then Lauren left to go see if she could check into the hotel. I didn't want to go with her in case it took too long to walk to the hotel and then not enough time to get back to the conference from my first lecture at 12. So I lugged around my stuff (backpack, suitcase and purse) and I only ended up going to two lectures! I have no time and was sooo pooped from waking up so early.

Walking back to the hotel took 30mins and Lauren was able to check in earlier then expected. It was 4 by the time I got to the hotel and then we had to get ready for the awards gala. Ate, got dressed and drank a bit since drinks were expensive. (We ended up buying two down there anyway). Lauren didn't get her award so that was a bummer. By the time the dancing came around we went back up stairs to drink more and that's when my six beers FINALLY hit me. I passed right out and she was tired too so called it a night....11:30pm lol.

Sunday I was just relaxing, Lauren left around two to go on the boat for top 500 and I worked out. The Westin has a pretty cool workout area/pool area. I was there for about an hour then went back to the room watched the storm rage outside. When it stopped I decided I'd go to the train station early. Union station is HUGE! It's pretty cool. Everything was interesting to see.

Went home and SLEPT. Next year, I'm doing the LMI day (which I missed out on since I didnt get what I had to do) and going for the FULL four days. Thursday, Friday, Saturday and Sunday!

Free Afternoon and Vball

For some reason last night I couldn't sleep. I stayed up until 2am and still had trouble. Funny time since I own 2am Publishing lol. I signed a new client today, sold 100 sessions which is great since the one ex-client I had, her contracts going into reversal so money is take off my paycheck. But this new client evens it out. There an incentive this month, most sessions sold gets an iPAD. How cool would that be?!  So far I got 100. There's another lady wanting 144 (a year) and I'm hoping to get Liz in for 100 and M for a 100. so I'll be at 344?! Alisa asked Katie (our regional) what the average is and she said around the 300-400 spot. So my fingers are crossed! By the end of the month I hope to win that ipad!!

plzplzplzplz

I don't have a client now until 3. Tan till 230, work for an hour then vball for six. I'm hoping to finish Divergent so I can start focusing on editing again :D

The First!

Okay, so I've tried to do this before but never kept it up. This time I'm hoping to pull through and keep a blog about my journey into the "Published Author" world.

I wrote a book when I was seventeen back in 2007. I sent it to how many agents and publishers but it never took off. Assuming it was because of the whole Vampire craze I took a step back and focused on getting another career that will make me money. Went to college for Aesthetics and am now a Personal Trainer. Bam! big turn there! The aesthetics road was good, but the way they took care of things was shameful and every time I had a day off I was at the gym.

In Feb. 2010 I started going to a spinning class called LesMills RPM. It was taught by Karen Richards! Who is the most wonderful person ever! And I caught the addiction! Then Gaspare this guy caught the addiction and he was thinking about being an instructor. I was thinking about it as well, but I didn't want to go up by myself so having him go was a bit of encouragement. My boyfriend had a problem with it, but I asked him to go with me and he didn't want tooooo sooooo ya.

Well it was ten hours on and off a bike. So much fun though. Now, when you become an instructor you have to get CanFitPro certified. WELL Goodlife has their GLPTI (Good Life Personal Training Institute) that gets you personal training certified AND canfitpro. I figured I'd kill two birds with one stone and went to that.

That's where I met the best Boss in the world. Alisa! We talked about eyebrows and how I creep-ed her facebook. I guess she liked me because she suggested I give her my resume. I had the job by the next week :)

That's where I'm at now. I own 2am Publishing as a back up plan if I never get an agent. I'll just go into self-publishing.

I have a few more sips of beer left, so I guess I'll just keep rambling.

When Alisa offered me the job at her gym, I was just about fed up with my aesthetics job. The day I quit was the day I realized I wasn't as appreciated there as I should have been. What they do there, at the spa, is 'punish' you by putting you at the bottom of the 'list'. The list is the order of employees. If you're first, you get booked with clients first. If your last, well you get the most days off. I was in the middle and because I ate an apple when it wasn't my break, I got put to the bottom. THAT'S when I spent the most time at the gym since I had all those days off. SO the day I quit was the spas once-a-month meeting. Its pretty much where they complain about what we're not doing.

Their biggest compliant was how people weren't cleaning. I kinda laughed since when I was working I was always the one staying behind and making sure shit was cleaned and done for the next day. I was the one during my gaps, cleaning and fixing shit, doing my duty and so on. I just found it funny that since I wasn't there as much, stuff wasn't getting cleaned.HA.

THEN the one receptionist goes, "I'd like to say something. I wanna says thanks to so and so for really pulling weight and helping me out even after your shift is done. I really appreciated it". Yea, I didn't get that mention and that's when I got pissed.
Drove home and wrote up my letter of resignation. The two managers were cool about it though and said I didn't have to do my two weeks and that I can go start my new job as PT at Goodlife.

The best part....That night I went to the casino and won 230$$ on a 5cent slot. 5 bucks into 230! Yeee!