CAP. Grandpa, and Greg's Birthday

It's CAP. And I still have yet to hit my client gain goal. Had to leave work early since My grandpa's in the hospital. He thought he was having a heart attack, but when they xrayed him, it was a knot in his bowl. *few*

Greg's 21 today! Yay boyfriend for now only being ONE year younger than me. I got him the sixth season of HIMYM and jolly rangers.

Olivia is looking for my short story. YIKES. lol. I'm nervous since she'll be the one to say, "It's shit" :(

 That's Noob when she was a little kittennnn ^^^

TEAM SUNDAY

Finally bought my protein meal replacement shakes so I can now do my three hour workout on sundays. RPM, STEP and PUMP. WOOT. I also got coconut milk for my protein shakes AND I also made homemade protein bars. Peanuts, honey, oat bran and coconut milk. Mmmmm.

^What I stumbled onto! LOLz^

So I'm still waitng for the editing of my short story to be done. The deadline is Saturday YIKES. I'll probably cut it close. I sent an query email to an agent. Now, I've been really trying to amp up my letter to catch attention and be personable. The only thing is when I do this and get rejected, those are the ones that hurt. The agent I sent too, I found that my book is REALLY what she's looking for since it's fantasy but bringing out real human truths. 

I remember when I was taking the online writing course, all my stories I submitted had something to do with my book. People liked them and a few said that as they started reading, they thought it was a regular genre then BAM it sci-fi/fantasy. The characters are so human though, so it's still relate-able (least thats what the teacher said). 

Sometimes.....I worry about her.... lol

Wish me luck. I hope my hard work pays off one day and I'll be given a chance!

Going Hungry!!

Right now, there's no food at my house. I think i'm going to make some protein bars with honey and peanut butter.
Yesterday I went for a run, my IT band was fine THANK GOD. I was thinking about going for another job today but my band was acting up so I'm going to give it a rest.

Peeve of the day: Some Hippie commented on my profile picture of Erin Stern and said "Exercise is unhealthy". Like really? You're commenting on a personal trainers facebook? REALLY.
I'll be the one laughing when he shows up at MY gym, at 40 years old with diabetes/osteoporosis saying his doctor told him to get to the gym. And I'll be the one going "I thought you said exercise was unhealthy? Yet you doctor's prescribing it because you're frail and wasting away from smoking and doing drugs? Good job."
Being Opinionated gets you nowhere.

I can understand where he can say it's unhealthy when some girl try and get their body% down to 2%. Or where it's a compulsive disorder and people HAVE to work out, or they just work out all the time. I decided to not let it get me by making a mini rant here.

My 2012 guide to literary agents is in today!!! Exciting!!!!

Here's some picture of my profile pics. They are girls that I admire and hope to one say look like, just a bit more toned down :P

Nicole Nagrani

Short Story

Okay, my short story for the compition will be cutting is close at the 4000 word mark :s

Ever since I was young I always wrote long ass stories than everybody else.

I went for a jog, on my way home I see this weird guy who lives on my street. Mind you, I'm on the opposite side of the street. He sees me and crosses the street, I cross to, to avoid him. He then stops and goes back, LIKE WTF. To obviously walk by me. Now, months ago I was nice and said hi to him one time when I was walking. Apparently I shouldn't be nice to creepy strangers. Lesson learned.

^My fav. thing

What I teach as well

See^^ I'm so happy :) lol

Writing Contest

There's a writing contest I'm entering in. Sci-fi/fantasy utopia kind of deal. I figure it's worth a shot. The 'beginning' of my book is like a short story. I have a week to finish it, and I think I have to keep it within 4000 words? Don't know how many pages that it, probably in the 20-30 range. When I think of the layout of my story that I'll submit for the contest, it feels like it'll be within range.

I'm shooting for honourable mention lol. Something to add to my query letttttttter

Well, I best be one it then.

Query Letter

Today I'm going to try and write the ULTIMATE Query Letter! Using Guide to Literary agents 2009/2010/2011.

Thing to make sure I include:
Watch grammar, spelling, word usage and sentence structure.
Make opening paragraph different and surprising while saying what kind of book is it right off the bat.
One page long
TRY and make summary of the book in ONE paragraph
Show them you're dedicated to your writing
Don't say your writing in hope they represent your work, get to the heart of the matter, the Book!
Friends/family readers loved your book-Leave that part out
Mention something personal in the letter to the agent as in: You spoke and blahblah this conferance. So they know their not getting sent a generic letter. 




Manuscripts:
Watch for unoriginal plots and Voice.
Write what you love, not what you think will sell!


Okay. I shall begin!

400!!!

So I wanted to see what my 1max rep was for the leg press. I have a rough idea, but I maxed out the machine, therefore I'd have to add weight to the whole stack. I stopped after I leg pressed 400lb! And no, I'm not fat nor do I have HUGE legs. I was strong and well conditioned legs from Spinning.
As for my workout I was only able to workout two muscle groups, but they're the ones that need some trimming. This is the weight and workout I did for my arms.

Shoulders: Upward rows w/EZ bar.
EZbar+15lb
Reps:12
Then without breaking I lowers the weight to 5lb on the EZ bar and did 15reps for the set2.
Set 3: 5lb 15reps

Biceps: EZbar curl
EZbar+15lb
Reps:12
Then again without breaking I did the second set with the 5lbs 15reps.
Set 3: 5lb 15reps

And MAN my arms are sore today! It hurt to hand my client the bar today since my shoulders KILL.

Cardio today: Spinning 55mins. RPM 52 (I gotta practice)
*NOTE* 55min is a whole class. It's hills, racing, attacks and mountains FYI lol

Peak Attitude = SHIT

I feel down. I think its that time of the month and I'm getting break outs so I feel ugly.

I think today I'm going to play "The Bouncer" for PS2 just to reset my head. --The Bouncer tells the story of three bouncers on a rescue mission to save their young friend from a megalomaniacal solar technology corporation. The game is structured like a "playable action movie" and the plot unfolds differently depending on which character the player chooses for specific gameplay sequences---


So I think I'll try it out, Baker lent them to me and she says it's an easy game to beat sooooo I'm hoping to make it an all nighter game. AKA: Beat it like mario64 so around four hours of play time. :)

I have to head to work today around 3, it'll give me an hour before the meeting so I plan on working out. Since I know THAT'LL make me feel a lot better.

I'm trying out a new work out routine for weight, I've been doing it with my client and she's been saying she feels thinner. SO I think it's working. 

I'll post the workout after I do it today WITH the amount of weight I use and all that jazz. :)   

Bruiser- RIP

There is never a dull moment at Goodlife. Yesterday, my boss (Who's an extreme animal lover) had her cat Bruiser not return home the previous night. Usually he returns but my boss knew something was a miss. The next day (yesterday) she had posters up.
Backstory about Bruiser:
He's a steel grey coloured cat, who was the badass of the hood my boss lives in. He's tough and was a stray. She started to feed him whenever he visited her. Slowly he started going into her house and got comfortable with her. Even when he offically became her indoor cat, she was still scared of him. One time he scratched her and it got infected and I think she almost lost her arm? So you can see why she was slightly scared of him. Anyways, he got sick one time and she brought him to a vets. When the vet walked in I guess Bruiser jumped onto my bosses lap for some comfort and she completely froze, scared he was gunna attack her! The vet looked at her like, "is this not your cat?" lol
Boss: "Yea, but he's never done this!"
So since then he's been her baby. She even talked about him when I first met her! When I took the training course to be a personal trainer.
She brought him to the gym a few months ago and I got to meet him. She warned me though: "I don't know if he'll attack you since he doesn't know you." she says.
Well, I just put my hand down and went, "Hey there, Brusier!" and he was so friendly and loving. And to think he was this big badass :)

So brings us to today. She got a call...someone found her cat. She couldn't go, so me and Lauren took off to investigate. We didn't find anything and I had a client(which I was late for) and during the training all I saw was my boss speed out the door. I just hoped for the best :(

She didn't come back and later I found out from Dani, that they did find Bruiser but not alive. It sucks. It truely does. Pets are just like our babies. I can't imagine what she's going through. I tear up just thinking about me ever picking up Noob from the road. Or the devastation when I found Smokey who looked like he was sleeping.

Now I have no idea what to say to my boss when she comes back this week. If it were me, I wouldn't want to be reminded. Plus, I'm terrible with words. I might try to say a joke and completely make it awkward :S

I'm going to do some editing just to get my mind off this :(

RIP Bruiser <3

PublishAmerica

Today I got an email back from the publishing company saying that they wanted to view my manuscript. Well, Well, well apparent big name publishing company. Internet nowadays allows everyone research and find out anything. There are no secrets between you and the internet! Dumdumdum.

Since AFTER I submitted my query to this publishing company, I googled them. First in the suggestion box 'SCAM'. Ooooo the heat turns up! Now, my understanding about a publishing company is that they'll publish your book, edit it, make sure there's no print errors, distribute and market your books, and so on... right? THIS publishing company only PRINTS your book and wants you to buy your own copies to give to your family, blah blah. Strange....

*Type type type* More research*
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/PublishAmerica
^^I found that interesting. Since on their website they say their a traditional publishing company.

WHAT I FOUND interesting was their slogan "We don't want your money, we want your book."
Now, now, that sounds a little...controlling. But I think that's the only thing they say truthful because when they decide they want to publish your book, they make you sign a contract for 7 YEARS. YIKESSSS.
http://www.complaintsboard.com/complaints/publish-america-c150696.html  < Complaints about the company.

It gets better. http://christianityforthinkers.com/publishamerica.htm < I found that site rather interesting since the lady did her homework AND lets you see her emails and their replies AND a very RUDE email to one of their 'authors'.

With all that being said, I think I'll take the higher route and NOT give them my manuscript since apparently they take anyone's(Wiki said someone submitted a manuscript that PA PRINTED and the manuscript had the first 30pages repeated ten times LOLZ)  and they take your rights of your book for 7 years. No thank you!

Over 100 Views!

Yea! I've finally hit over a 100 views! I bet some of you are going, "yea, NOT that big of a deal. I hit 1MILLION yesterday. pffffft"

*Gives finger*

So, it's been 10years since 9/11. I bet every blog out there is posting something about it. Which is fine, people get to read all the different stories about when they heard about it. I was in grade 7 and didn't even know what the 'twin towers' were.
The teacher sat us all down in class and told us what happened. Some girl made a comment:

"Why should we care? That's nowhere close to where we are.."

Yea....teacher was PISSED. But at the time, I agreed  with her, since I knew nothing about the towers and didn't actually understand what was going on. Until I got home and it was all my mother watched. Everything started to unfold and THAT's when I started caring just based off the impact it was having.
10 years later and there's still a war....mmm.

Well, that was my little bit. I'm at Starbucks. Yea, that's right, I'm one of thoooose people right now. Lol.
I'll be editing until Chelsey shows up :)

OMG YOUR KIDDING?!?!

Holy smokes, blogger sucks ass since I CAN'T FIGURE OUT HOW TO COMMENT.
I either have to use some other account, like REALLY? or another email and it still WON'Y let me!!!!

So if anyone can explain how I can comment on my own stuff, please do.

My FYI, I commented (two posts ago) deadenveins is Me. My livejournal account that hasn't been used for EONS.

Eons as in HIGHschool! Lol

Anyways.....that's allll

2am Publishing

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Saturday and I'm NOT going out

Yeah, that's right. That title is true...I think. Lol. Usually I'll want to stay inside but I'll get bored and WANT to go out. Actually I kind of want to go to Starbucks, drink a frap and edit.
Now for an update. I went for a walk to the dollar store and saw that my friend Alex was working. We chatted for a bit, blahblahblah, until I had to go.
"I'll leave you to your work man, I gotta go edit."
And then she turns and says, "Hey! Did you see that So-n-so has like, two books published?"
I was like WHAT.

So Alex proceeds to tell me how a girl from our high school has two books published already. How is it that I'm having such a hard time and she already has two? So clearly I'm mad about this, because I'm all gonghoe about my book. lol. I storm off to go check this shit out.

Stormed my way home and went onto facebook. Alex was telling the truth, rats! lol. BUT, it wasn't as bad as it seemed. Yes, she has two books published. (Almost Lost and Hate me or Love me....if you guys want to check the out.) BUT I'm going a different route for the publication of my book.

I hitting up agencies since I figure that'll be my best bet to get my story out there. So that LOTS of people can love my characters as much as I do (Since no one can love them more than me :P )

Her books were hard to find, and you can only get them off of amazon? I think. I tried to find what they're about, but no luck. One day, I hope they find their way into mainstream and I can say I went to highschool with that girl. Of course that's what they'll be saying about MOI when I'm rich and FAMOUS. lol. high hopes....high hopes... lol

I'll tell you now, I WAS going to come onto here and BITCH about it and rant and say mean things. Yet, that won't make it any better nor will it look good on me. I actually went to her publishers website and submitted my query just to see. They don't really say what they're looking for, but I gave it a shot anyway.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=loDBIWZSack
^^Cool/chill song. Makes you bob your head :)

  

The Devil and God are raging inside

Good Album(title) It how I felt yesterday. I got mad at Greg last night. It wasn't a big fight but it was one of those 'I'm sick of this' fight. He spent the whole drive home saying nothing as I was telling him how I feel. Then I go to leave and I don't give him a kiss goodbye, he doesn't deserve one. So I give him a txt after he leave, cuz since he went and didn't even try and make things better or fix anything.

After txt's back and forth he comes back over, we talk and he sleeps over.

The whole Devil and God are raging inside me come from me wanting to break up. It's just that I don't have faith in him to change anymore. I don't expect him to change, just to not make me feel bad when he does nice things. Certain things that he says just need to change. It's impossible to break up with someone that you really love because I don't want to stay with him for love and have it waste my whole life because he doesn't change and continues to be a dick.

Which leads us to my dream I had. I'm used to having dreams of Greg betraying me, since it's my worst fears. BUT this one, he cheated on me with my client Morgan! In the dream, there was a party and I left early, but Greg stayed and went to another party with her and that's where the cheating happened. I couldn't even bring myself to ask him what they did, even if it was a dream. The next day I see Greg and start piecing together what really happened and it comes out.

All I felt in my sleep was heat come down from my shoulders and burn into my chest. I start to breath weird, like I can't breathe through my nose and I start heaving. Everything starts to crumble inwards in my chest, my heart start pumping harder and it hurts a lot. I start to wake up from my dream.

It's only 7am and I had the worst sleep. For the next two hour I relive that dream, constantly getting my heart broken. It feel like did with my ex. It's like a panic attack and someone tied you chest tight and they keep squeezing.

I need to find my lavender spray! Since that was the only thing that stopped the bad dreams...

COLTON BAKER

He's here! And he's a badass!

Drawn by me and Coloured by my friend Keith Mcfadden.

Since I'm terrible when it comes to shading and contouring :P

Anyway, editing's going well. I have yet ANOTHER added chapter. Adam's part is almost done. I'm on the last of his chapter.

I have a question that I hope to one day be answered!

I have m antagonist's back story written out. When should I put it in my story? At the end? In book two?

STORMMZZZ twitter and books

First off, I finished PUSH. Good book, not what I'm use to since I read YA. It ended quite suddenly but it ended with a poem by the main character and back-stories from the other characters. It's a book I probably wont read again. I think I'll probably re-read the hunger games though. Then Harry Potter or some book written in third person. I read like a writer so more reading helps my writing :)

Second. BIG STORM! But no tornado watch. Looks like its already clearing. Which would be nice since I wanna bike home from the boyfriends house tonight.

That's what it looks like. So round One, now onto round two!

I successfully did ONE DAY of the caveman diet. 

Breakfast: Eggs (Three, with one yoke)

Lunch: Protein Shake

Shrimp, peppers and mushrooms

Dinner: Bacon!!!

Tea (Oolong tea)

And now I'm hungry again! More tea? Maybe more bacon?

Best diet EVER!!

UFC

Watching UFC, all Anderson Silva's fights. I hate him because he's cocky and just so awesome at the sport. I wish someone would just put him in his place!

If I was a boy and I was in the UFC, I would change my name to Vegeta and look like this:

Yea, that's right. I'd be a Saiyan too. 

No rest for the wicked!

Went to bed at 1am last night and around 7am my cat Noob somehow got into my room. Now, she tries to be quiet but steps on EVERYTHING that makes noise. She sucks at being sneaky! So she comes in and starts meowing because she wants food.

I figure if she doesn't see me, she'll think I'm not there and she'll leave. So I cover myself in my blanket and put my head under the pillow.

All I feel is Noob get on the bed and start roaming around to find me. Like WTF, then she sits on my back and continues meowing. Stupid/relatively smart cat! She then goes over to my legs, straddles one and starts biting my heel! I shake her off and turn to my side, still completely covered expect a tiny hole for me to breath. I feel her walk up to head and all I see is this little paw start attempting to pull the cover away from my face. REALLY??

But thats why I love her lol.

The minute I look at her, she gives me her sad, I'm hungry, meow. So I get up and feed her. Little brat!

Thats her ^^ in the picture above